Return

Well I have finally been able to secure a definite return date to FFXI, which is January 13th. I've been gone nearly 3 full months already and am looking forward to my return very much. I've been able to think a lot about things in that time, been able to gain a good perspective.

As much as I want things to be the way they were before I left, I have a gut feeling they won't be. I used to do lots of things with Shay, and even though we have made plans to do more things together, I just can't help but think it won't be the same. Maybe she moved on while I was gone, maybe not. I can't expect her to drop everything and go back to the way things were 3 months ago no matter how much I want her to. I'm sure you'll probably be reading this soon Shay, just remember that above all I want you to be happy and do things for yourself, not for me.

All this time away has made me realize that the only really good thing about the game is the people you meet. I miss all my friends a lot and my life has been a little more empty without them. Not that my life outside of FFXI is empty, its not like that at all. True I don't have many real life friends but I have lots of people that care about me. I have a job I like very much and work with people I like very much. Its not a half bad deal really.

Just 13 more days