I'm finally back

Well the time finally arrived for my glorious return to FFXI. It would be a joyous and unforgettable event the likes the world has seldom known.

Except it wasn't anything like that. At all.

Well let me give a little background first. There was a new expansion released in late November but there were lots of problems with shipping and whatnot. So because of this Shay wasn't able to get her copy till after Christmas. During a conversation one day I said something to the effect of "I really wish I could be able to show you around when you first go into the expansion", and she replied "You will". Thus the promise was born that Shay would wait for my return before exploring the expansion so we could do it together.

Fast forward to this past Friday, Shay came onto ICQ and we had a nice talk. I asked her if she was still keeping her promise and she said yes. One of my supposed friends was bugging her to go explore with him, but she told me that she told him she was going to wait for me. I don't know what happened but at some point after that conversation he talked her into going into the expansion with her and basically doing all the things I had planned and was promised would be done.

Now, maybe I was being a bit unreasonable or dramatic, but I was really mad when I found this out. If there is one thing in this world hate more than anything its a broken promise, and that is what happened. I had planned this and had been looking forward to it for over a month, so I can imagine you can understand why I would be upset. I equate it to planning to see your favorite band in concert with someone, but they decide to go with someone else the night before instead.

Even though she broke her promise I find it really hard to get mad at her, or stay mad for long. She has done so much for me and been there for me during some of my tougher times, and I appreciate it so much, probably more than she realizes. She apologized to me, and said that she didn't think I would care if she just went to the city but saved everything else for me. I believe her, I don't think she did it to hurt me because she never has in the past. I felt kind of like an asshole for ripping into her and making such a big deal of the whole thing, but it really meant a lot to me to be able to do it.

Now about the other person involved. Even though they really technically didn't do anything bad, I was still more mad about what he did than Shay. From what she told me he had been bugging her to go with him to explore the expansion for a while now. During this time she had repeatedly told him about her promise to me, yet he still persisted until she finally relented. I don't know about you, but when someone has promised to do something with one of my friends, I do NOT keep bugging them about it and drop it completely. I felt that being friends with him, and basically getting kicked out of a LS I loved defending him, would have warranted enough respect for him to drop it and let her keep her promise. Apparently I was wrong.

To add even more to this he was bragging about taking her through the rest of the expansion knowing full well her promise to me, and he was doing it right in front of my face. I mean seriously, the instant he heard it was me she made a promise to he should have said ok and left it at that. Its not bad enough he steals away the thing I was looking forward to for a month, he's trying to steal even more from me.

I haven't said a word to him since coming back, and he has to be wondering why at this point. I don't think anyone has told him how I feel yet but I intend to soon. It was pretty messed up what he did and he needs to know that one way or another.

Well anyway I haven't talked to Shay since then but she did send me a message and she seemed to be in good spirits about it. I will be on tonight after work and hopefully she'll be on then, and hopefully she'll wait for me this time before going back.

In other FFXI news I learned a couple new BLU spells and also got Rank 10 in Sandy. Now I can switch back to Bastok from that God forsaken hell hole and its annoying bagpipe music.

I'm sure I'll have more to talk about soon, with me back in FFXI and another presidential Primary coming up this week. Until then take care.