Things never go the way you want them to

I'm sure everyone can relate to this. Its been especially true for me in the past year and I don't see it changing much either. I had so many plans, so many things I've wanted to do that never came to be. Do I have regrets? Yeah I do, and I think thats the worst part of it all.

I'm about to do something that could very well amount to "friendship suicide", but its something I feel needs to be done. Its very risky for me considering what is at stake, considering what I may lose. You see what I have now I cherish very much, but unfortunately like many things in life, it has gotten stagnant and progress needs to be made. I could lose everything, but I could also gain the world, gain happiness, gain everything else I've been dreaming of.

I just hope that I am right about this, and that I am allowed to have that chance.